Staying Home with My Munchkin

So while we were in LA visiting Keith's parents we went into a grocery store to get some stuff. A lady came up to comment on how cute Addie was. (And of course Addie gives them here cheesy smile and says "hey guys")

 She then asks me if I stay home with her of if I work. I said that I worked part time but I'm at home with her as much as I can. She proceeds to inform me that it is much better for me to be at home with her and that no one would take care of her or live her like I could...I almost didn't know what to say!

I know there are a lot of working moms out there, some that choose to work and others that work out of a necessity and seriously I have no judgment. I really think that the decision to work or not with kids, is solely the mothers choice, aside from maybe input from the husband and Heavenly Father. And i can see why some want to work. But I HATE working right now! HATE it! I would much rather be at home with my munchkin all day everyday...but unfortunately I'm not at a place where I can do that.

I feel like a when I'm at work I miss so much! I think about what she's doing and if she misses me at all. Which I know she probably does especially because she always runs and gives me kisses as soon as I get back, and that doesn't make it any easier to work. I hate that I miss stuff when I'm gone. I almost missed her first steps for crying out loud! And as much as I act like it doesn't bother me it kills me when she call someone else "Mama", even if its just because she can't say their name. I'm Mama, that's my name.

I left the store that day feeling like the worst mom ever, that I could not be there for her all the time,  at least while she is so little. So even though I'm by far not the most patient mom ever, nor the most creative, most fun, most righteous mom ever I will try a little harder to be a better mom when I have her home with me. Try to be a little more patient, try to do fun things with her. Spend more cuddle time, reading time, playtime, and more time enjoying her being little...

because before I know it she won't be my little Addie Ruth anymore.